Tears

At this very moment, I want to cry for no apparent reason at all. I don't know if you can relate. I am so overwhelmed today and I can only do so much. It seems that I can't take a step forward. It seems that I am confine to a tight room where all directions end to a concrete wall. No door. It is impossible to break that wall with my bare hands. My emotion is so heavy right now. If only I can scream at the top of my lungs.

Self pity

Tired

Hopeless

Alone

Lost

If only I can cry a river tonight then, I will be refreshed tomorrow. Maybe I will watch a movie later tonight until I doze off to sleep. Movies like LOVE AFFAIR starring Warren Beatty and Annette Beaning. Have you seen that movie? Oh, you should watch it.

"It was my own fault, I was looking up.

I knew you were there."

"It doesn't have to be a miracle,

If you can paint, I can walk.

Anything can happen, don't you think?"

That video made me cry already.

 

Anyway, I talked to my mom awhile ago. We talk every night you know. She's my best friend and the one person who knows me. I just feel hopeless that after all these years, I can't process her papers to come visit me here. It is indeed lonely without my mom and my brother, and his family here with me. I want us all to be together here soon. I pray that God will hear my request soon.

 

Okay, I am done with my drama. Thanks for stopping by and don't forget to watch that movie.